Do you ever feel completely alone? Scared? Left out?
I understand that pain. I've felt that on many occasions throughout my life.
Most recently, starting college has been almost like starting completely over. New friends, new home, new routines. For someone who struggles with all things "new", this has been such a huge and hard adjustment.
Quite a few tears, a few sleepless nights, and many calls back home. Definitely not as easy as I thought it would be.
Making new friends has been the most difficult part for me personally. I'm not the most outgoing person and I keep a lot to myself. Opening up is the main way to make instant friends, but it's so hard to do. How are people able to tell so much about themselves? And how do they come up with so many good questions to ask? I can barely give an answer sometimes, much less think of something to ask. Who wants to be friends with someone who never talks?
One day, I was driving down the road and there was a song that came on the radio that caught my attention. Right when I was feeling so alone.
That emptiness, feeling as though no-one cared about me or wanted to be friends with me. I was watching my high school friends meet all these new people and begin to form relationships with them. Yet, many people introduced themselves to me, but there was nothing more than that.
I was 4 hours away from my family and my best friend. People who I was certain loved me and truly knew me.
But God knew just the reminder I needed. The song reminded me that no matter what, I was fully known and loved by God. He has a love that is bulletproof. He knows us better than we know ourselves and he will never, ever leave us. So just when you feel like no-one knows you, he does.
"I'm fully known and loved by You
You won't let go no matter what I do
And it's not one or the other
It's hard truth and ridiculous grace
To be known fully known and loved by You
I'm fully known and loved by You"
Known by Tauren Wells
// As the semester has gone by, it has still been so hard at times. Especially on the weekends when most people go home, and the dorms are extra quiet. But I am so so so thankful for the few sweet people I've met along the way :)
"For the sake of his great name the Lord will not reject his people, because the Lord was pleased to make you his own." 1 Samuel 12:22