One day recently, I was having a pretty good day, had just worked out, feeling good, and then I dropped my phone. Face down. On concrete.
My heart dropped, but thankfully the screen was only cracked a little on the bottom, not completely shattered, and it still works fine.
Later that afternoon, I made some coffee and poured it into my favorite coffee cup. I noticed coffee on my hand after I drank a sip, and then realized it was cracked too. Only enough for me to notice, be aware of it, and be a little sad too. However, the cup is still usable - just with a little extra caution.
After these two incidents happened, and a long night of no sleep, I knew God was trying to tell me something.
I think it was a reminder to me that I may be cracked, but I'm not completely broken.
What do I mean by that?
I mean that healing is a process. It can happen in waves, it can happen quickly, or it can happen very slowly.
Many people, including me once, are just completely broken. Hearts have been shattered to pieces by some situation or person or choice. We struggle to get up in the morning. We can't sleep at night. We don't see the point in going to work. We don't want to do the assignment. We don't want to eat or don't want to stop eating. Our hearts are just heavy.
We are a broken generation of people living in a very broken world, a world that celebrates sex outside of marriage, drinking, partying, money, perfection, etc.
Yet, while we aren't meant to be perfect, we also are not meant to be so lost.
We are people who go through hard things every day. Whether that thing is big or small, the devil seeks to destroy our joy.
However, we have a God who wants to heal our broken hearts. A God who wants to make us whole and complete. One who wants to fill our voids and bridge the gaps in our lives. One who has the power to make us feel known and loved.
The enemy wants us to believe that God enjoys watching His children go through such adversity, but that is far from the truth. He has a far greater plan laid out for us, even when it doesn't make sense at times. God hurts when He sees His children hurting.
“For the Lord does not abandon anyone forever. Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion according to the greatness of His unfailing love. For He does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.” (Lamentations 3:31-33 NLT)
Just as God allows this pain to enter into our lives, He also sends healing and restoration.
What does this process look like?
It starts with us cooperating with Him by spending time in prayer, studying His word, and praising Him. It requires us to give ourselves - our worries, doubts, and fears - to Him, as well as asking Him to speak to us. We can't hide our wounded hearts and expect to be healed.
God is the avenger of our past hurts. His grace and unfailing love offer back the part of our lives that the enemy has stolen from us.
He wants to restore our relationships, our joy, our health, the years where no fruit was produced, the years spent in rebellion, the years spent believing those lies you were told, and all of the time spent away from Christ. He wants to restore everything.
By being faithful followers, our trails will lessen in duration and intensity. Letting God move in our lives is the onlyway to become whole again, and there's no amount of "self-help" that can do what the blood of Jesus can.
Let the Lord reign over your heart, and know that, while you may not understand why things are being thrown at you or what God's doing in this moment, God will only bend you. He will never let you break.
Cracked, but never truly broken.
"The God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." 1 Peter 5:10
“In all their suffering He also suffered, and He personally rescued them. In His love and mercy, He redeemed them. He lifted them up and carried them through all the years.” (Isaiah 63:9 NLT)
"Heal me, LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise." Jeremiah 17:14